Miss Miser

2006-01-01T04:05:00.000-08:00

hihi! i did a " true colour" survey test of me online.
Here is the results. i like such tests. fun!

Blue
You're blue — the most soothing shade of the spectrum. The color of a clear summer sky or a deep, reflective ocean, blue has traditionally symbolized trust, solitude, and loyalty. Most likely a thoughtful person who values spending some time on your own, you'd rather connect deeply with a few people than have a bunch of slight acquaintances. Luckily, making close friends isn't that hard, since people are naturally attracted to you — they're soothed by your calming presence. Cool and collected, you rarely overreact. Instead, you think things through before coming to a decision. That level-headed, thoughtful approach to life is patently blue — and patently you!

3 days Holiday Trip

2005-12-27T01:09:00.000-08:00

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I just came back from Genting Highlands on Sunday. It wasn't much fun, in fact, pretty boring, walking around the huge shopping place with nothing amazing. However, it was the right time i take a break from my work, sitting around, pondering, just relaxing with the company of my family. It was chilly, and way too foggy, almost the whole time. Frankly, we were just trapped in the huge mall for 3 days, and our hotel was just inside the mall anyway. haha? I got myself a new phone finally, N70, it's really useful, and here are the photos from it. See from the picture, it's really foggy? i can't really see what's out there, and the sweets, i love the colours. The huge chilli, i ate 3/4 of it, don't worry, it ain't spicy.

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art!

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All the colourful sweetz!

2005-12-27T00:56:00.000-08:00

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2005-11-19T10:23:00.000-08:00

I will be on cruise tomorrow morning with my family. I will be back on the 23rd, evening. ^_^ I have taken 3 days leave from work. Tag me if u miss me *_~

TheOrangeFactory

2005-11-17T05:17:00.000-08:00

TheOrangeFactory
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

I was very inspired by the konami songs by Orange Lounge and therefore did this series of drawings about 2 weeks ago. I was very excited about the songs when i first gotten the 6 remixed, pop-jazzy, cute tunes like 3 to 4 yrs back. I have never heard anything like that since then that it left a very deep impression in me. I lost those songs unknowingly for 2 to 3 yrs. However I was reminded by the nostalgic past working through the nights, burning midnite oil, listening to the tunes repetitively. Once again i felt the strong urge to find these tunes back. I was lucky, i got them all back after numerous trys. It was an extremely difficult find. ^_^ P/S ( It is a series of drawings done quite badly which did not do justice to the songs.)

2005-11-15T05:36:00.000-08:00

Happened to do something like that today which looks v much like a homepage to a website. Then, i suddenly had the idea of making my own label for jewelleries on sale online and thought that this could be my front page. It was intended to to be simple, refreshing, organic, of beauty and naturalism. You can check it out by clicking on the picture above to see a bigger view of it. ^^

2005-11-14T04:28:00.000-08:00

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Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

Drew this today!

2005-11-11T04:51:00.000-08:00

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Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

This is the second design proposal for the jewelleries.

2005-11-11T04:48:00.000-08:00

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Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

2005-11-09T03:54:00.000-08:00

Hi,
have been very sick for two days already. Tmr, I need to get back to work. I was on MC, and sleeping away the whole of yesterday. Fever, cough, flu, stuffy nose, sorethroat, phelgm. wow, i was so drowsy and got an upset stomach after taking the medicine prescribed by the private doctor. I couldn't eat, and with every meal i feel like vomitting, so i visited the polyclinic this morning. Now, the running nose is still on, tiredness is still there, hope i get better by tmr morning, cause i really need to get back to work, don't want to leave any bad impression.

Tag Job

2005-11-04T08:07:00.000-08:00

braclet
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

Hi! i did not buy these accessories, i just merely designed the hangtags, did the labelling for these products at work, in other words design the packaging of these products. I did everything from printing to cutting out every shape and hole which was tedious as usual of what's expected of me. The brand name wasn't decided by me, it spells " Bonafide Rarity". However, i did some jewellery combinations out of those raw pieces bought from Bangkok. Here are two examples of the products which are the existing pieces i did not touch. I kept these pictures for keepsake, and started appreciating my works more than before. ^^

2005-11-04T08:02:00.000-08:00

earrings
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

2005-11-02T06:38:00.001-08:00

I did a personality test just now and here are the 2 results generated. I thought the 2nd kind is much more like me than the 1st result. I'm surprised that I got " The Inspirer" as the 1st one, ha! maybe i'm striving to be like that but i'm definitely not the storyteller, however I still like the 2nd result more.

Your #1 Match: ENFP
The Inspirer

You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller! You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #2 Match: INFP
The Idealist

You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world. Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships. It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close. But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

2005-10-31T02:35:00.000-08:00

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Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

Yen bought me this tin box by nitemare before xmas. I like all pvc toys by Tim Burton.

2005-10-31T02:34:00.000-08:00

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Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

Bought this pair of shoe few days ago. So long never buy shoes already. All of my shoes were either sneakers or flip flops.

2005-10-31T01:36:00.000-08:00

nails
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

woo... proud of my artificial-looking, baby-blue nails.

2005-10-31T01:35:00.000-08:00

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*close up of my sketches on my office table*

2005-10-31T01:32:00.000-08:00

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This is my table after my office shifted. It's almost always untidy, this is consider quite tidy already..

2005-10-24T10:19:00.000-07:00

drawing
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

Did this at work today in the morning. Did it in A3 size.
Replying to Jerlyn : " No la, im not going on retro style, just trying anything for fun. The skinnier the better ma, i better take precaution, what's more i need to fit clothings everyday. Sometimes certain body area doesn't look too nice when i wear certain cuttings, feel abit embarrassing as they will look at every part of me in great detail. Somemore im short, i don't wanna look compress. hee...

2005-10-23T05:43:00.000-07:00

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Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

I love these 2 dolls. One from Pullip, the other from Blythe. Felt like getting it for myself, any suggestion which is prettier?

2005-10-23T05:42:00.000-07:00

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Strict diet.

2005-10-21T08:53:00.000-07:00

Let's see what's my diet today.
Morning for breakfast, 1 hotdog bun, 1 milo.
Afternoon for lunch, Yun tun noodles.
( disgusting! I hate yun tun, but i just want to try different things other than my usual few rice meal choices. I dun really like noodles. Anyway, i finished 3/4 of it, and it nearly spoilt my mood, my stomach wasn't feeling too well lately, so i felt like puking eating the tasteless yun tun. Yun Tun to me is tasteless.)
After lunch, water.
Late afternoon , 1 western milk tea.
Evening for dinner, 1 almond tart, 1 mushroom cream soup.
YAY! Luckily didnt eat too much.
I hope after this i dun gooble up any left over snacks.

2005-10-18T05:22:00.000-07:00

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Had this hair like 2 mths ago..

I'm back V

2005-06-22T04:51:00.000-07:00

I still don't feel good. Maybe just a wee bit better, but still i feel terrible. I feel deprive. Deprive of something, and i'm confuse about what i actually am deprive of. Something's lost. I just hope that writing a post will make me feel better. I feel disorganise.

It's v hard for me to express my feelings now, i feel so stifled. Maybe because I know nothing's gonna change. I think so much this time as i type now. My brain's dry, but i feel so much. I wanna cry, but i cant, because i can't cry for nothing...
I feel so exhausted, I dun wanna care anymore.I just needed someone to take care of my things for me, for now. But no one is gonna do the job even if i pay.. haha!

I'm back IV

2005-06-20T06:08:00.000-07:00

So glad that my sister actually comes to my blog. Whatever the reason is, even if she just happens to pass by it to waste some extra time, makes me happy enough near to tears. When my world is coming down on me, when i have so much to carry on my back, no one knows, because those are imaginary, invisible load on my own back that hurts me overtime if i'm not save from my insanity fast enough by someone. So much to express, but so HARD to express, for me. People who are suppose to understand me, " don't", i end up being so " wrong" about my mindset, and doings to them, i get so exhausted. I don't like others correcting me unappropriately, i just want them to listen to what i'm talking about, and be concern, not reprimand me. That hurts me so much.

When i get upset about some people, i have to tell myself, the world is like this, face it, face it! I have to tell myself that most humans are selfish, just like me, hard-headed. I don't want to be the party who is " wrong" anymore. I'm so sorry if my wrong doings hurt anyone because of my selfishness. I feel so bad, my heartaches when i hurt someone badly. I do feel embarrass and guilty towards that person. I would like to pretend nothing happens ( on the outside), but my heart hurts so much i dare not face that person. My face shows that i'm mad, emotionless and selfish, but my heart hurts for that person, i dare not show because i don't know what is going to happen next.

It has been a tough time for me, i lost my sanity recently, but i'm getting it back v soon. Who thinks i enjoy all of these? i get v drained off as well, with no one to comfort me. I hope everything will be fine soon. I will get back on my feet again.

p/s My apology to someone i hurt.

I'm back III

2005-06-15T07:56:00.000-07:00

Good evening!

Duno why on earth are there people so fortunate. The happiest things, and the luckiest things happen to them, as if their world is perfect, flawless, as it seems to be. I can never understand, from which part of the world are they from. I'm full of envy, not jealousy.

Thinking of that, I'm reminded of people who weren't as lucky as i am, real poor, hungry, lots of bills to pay, lots of responsibilities to handle, i'm still lucky in some ways.

I'm still fortunate, at least one of my friend whom i have been communicating on the net, knew each other for roughly 3 yrs told me that he suddenly felt glad to have a nice friend like me. That kept me happy for the next few days. I must quickly note this down here before i forget those beautiful moments that once made me a fortunate person. He drew me a bunch of yellow roses(careful of the intentions, haha) 2 yrs back for V day, when he knew i was sad that my bf didn't make much effort for that day with no presents to give me. I'm still a lucky person.

Today,on the train, i saw someone wearing the T shirt i design, sitting opposite me. I was half-giggling away with my hand over my mouth, i felt ticklish and silly for that idea of the design on the shirt. See! i'm still lucky that someone wears what i design, meaning someone appreciates. HAHA...

Alrite, be back for, "I'm back IV", till then :P

I'm back II

2005-06-11T02:54:00.000-07:00

Hello,

Nothing much to write everyday, that's why i havent been blogging, but i do miss my blog. Usually after work, i will be heading for home these days, no real places to go to, the few places, are the places i always have been to already. Once in a while, still meet up with a few friends for a chat, and nice dinner. My company is shifting to somewhere in Jurong next month ,far ride for me, got to wake up at 630am every morning. poor me!

I have just cut my hair again...haha, new spec. My specs broke a looong time ago, i didnt get it replaced and kept on wearing that big sunglasses to everywhere and home. Finally got one, hard to find one that suits me.. this is a navy, Big, oval shaped plastic spec. Now, i look like a nerd! Like cecilia,the chinese version of Harry potter Hk movie.

Btw, thanks to Prince who has always been entertaining me with his humorous yet witty philosophical conversations. I still miss HK.

I'm back.

2005-04-24T01:34:00.000-07:00

HI EVERYONE,

I'm Back!, muahahah....y haven't i been blogging? TOo lazy, after work i'm usually tired, just slack around in the house, and soon before i know it, it's time to go to bed. Realising someone actually notices about my blog => " john" who tagged me, i got motivated to write this post. ^^ There isn't really anything much to blog on since work has started, lifestyle is somewhat settled down with a job to do everyday from early morning till evening. Weekends are getting boring and dreadful...y? coz i have been to almost all the places around Singapore, and weekends started getting repetitive 1 mth ago with me slacking around in the house instead.

I have done a new hairstyle about 3 weeks ago. It's shorter than before, still black, bigger and tighter curls with a straight, irregular fringe. Maybe 1 day i will post the pic up here.

My goals for my career has been slightly altered. After this job, i hope to be venturing into fashion design. To learn more about the process of designing clothes. I wanna learn sth new besides graphics alone. I'm sure the working industry will be v different in another field. I'm quite tired of 4 yrs of strenous training i had for my graphic course and perhaps that isn't my forte. Hopefully, i will be able to take part in this fashion designing contest. The dateline is towards the end of next mth which leaves me with abt 1 mth. Hoping to pass up something despite my daytime job ;( At least sth to keep in my portfolio.

Alrite for now , i'll be back.
Take care guys.

2005-02-21T06:47:00.000-08:00

I like EASON CHEN sooo much........
He is my favourite. There are other stars i like as well besides him, but just a few more. I'm not the type to go crazy for a star, or to call anyone my idol, but he is almost there. And i seem to get more and more obsessed with him.
What do i like about him? Actually i dun find him very good looking, he is more like an average looking man in HK ( that's my own view), and in fact he seems to be a little on the plump side, but nevertheless, that doesn't seem to bother me at all, what i really care about is how much he is enjoying what he do infront of us.

He is charming. He expresses himself well with feelings on stage, he handles the crowd well, and he is humorous, more like mischevious. I'm so attracted to his ways, and i find his style and actions so amusing i just wish he can entertain me everyday. I guess he is just being himself out there, and opening his heart to his fans and to what he is doing. He is enjoying every part of his life. That is what i can see, my guess is. I really admire his approach, and things like x factor is inborn. When u try to fake something, others can see it for sure. The more u try to hide it, the more embarrassing it will become. I watched the movie- il mare, and one part of it says, there are 3 things in the world u cannot hide, the more u try to hide, the more it reveals to others. The 3 things are, " cough, poverty, missing for somebody".

I don't know what i like so much about Eason besides all these i can THINK of. Maybe, it's the feeling he gives me everytime i see him. He reminds me of happiness. He reminds me of the days i felt happy, and without worries. He reminds me of a lifestyle i feel safe and carefree, the days when " all i care about is now". He reminds me of my innocent days just being a youngster, just enjoying what i do and going with my feelings with no one to bother. The only time i feel like that again is when i watch him behaving the way i want to be now. I was hoping he can be someone i can relate to, i wanted to feel as great as him. I try to be, but sometimes it cannot apply to my lifestyle. Or maybe, im just making up what he is?

A part of me is like that, because i noe i try to be sincere to most people around me, and to what i do. Some people might say im living in my own world, because im trying to be someone not everyone can accept, i do not want to be influenced by people around me, but i just want to be what i want to be, to live in my own mindset. Sometimes, it's hard, but it's important. There will also be people who will not understand, and go against it. But, I value freedom alot, i just wish to be respected.

2005-02-13T08:52:00.000-08:00

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Racing car sponsored by Red Bull for Petronas
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2005-02-13T08:51:00.000-08:00

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2005-02-13T08:50:00.001-08:00

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2005-02-13T08:50:00.000-08:00

twintower
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Happy Chinese New Year

2005-02-13T08:48:00.000-08:00

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Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

Happy Chinese New Year at Malaysia, now im back from the road trip. I went to KL, JB, and a few other places which i have forgotten what the names are due to my terrible, lagging memory. It was quite worthwhile and i enjoyed it. I enjoyed it as i'm sure every min being there haven't been a waste, i was packed with activities with the rest moving from place to place. I like travelling alot, and i must thank those who have brought be there and spent the new year with me. i have decided that my next trip will be to HK. I haven't taken too many pictures as nth fanciful really caught my eye, if not the camera wasn't around me or anything like that. It was a long holiday, and tmr i will be back to work again. I went up the twin tower mall which is called KLCC, and i also went up KL tower and from there i took the picture of the twin tower's side view and others which i'm showing here.

Tmr is Valentine's Day. It's the day, i always have been waiting for the whole year to know who will be spending those romantic moments with me making that day special for me apart from the rest. However, i noe i shouldn't be expecting too much, as disappointment kills hope. I must remind myself that I'm an adult now and i must view life as practical which directly means pretty boring to me, which i never accepted but i have to put aside my fairy tale stories now haha. Anyway, dreams lie in your own imaginations, and i hope i will never have to kill that.

Miss Miser wish u all a Happy Chinese New Year, and a Valentine's Day to spend with your love one.

2005-02-07T10:12:00.000-08:00

" Actually a love relationship is quite meaningless, because all endings are the same, someone got to leave eventually."- Ling

2005-02-07T09:47:00.000-08:00

'I have to learn to sleep without him, because he could sleep without me.' - Ling

2005-02-07T09:32:00.000-08:00

Who will feel heartache for me? i don't know. maybe, actually, nobody will.
Who will stand by me forever? ( Be there for me no matter what happens). Actually no one will. No one will stand by anyone forever. Everybody will stand by only themselves for forever. No one will stand by me forever........I have to learn that fact, everyone has to. There is no forever love maybe, im not sure, whether is it friends or whoever, just as long as it is a relationship. No one will be there forever before u. Wake up from my own idealogy pls. It's only fairy tales, things don't happen the perfect way i want it to be. Be glad the person can stand by u, be loving u, protect u, as long as the person can, as long as the person feels like doing so, that person will, if not, not anymore when the person wants to stops, they just stop, sometimes even without a reason. Generally, life isn't beautiful, There are too many ugly things in this world. If u don't know how to stand by urself, ur as good as dead. I just wanted love to be pure and sincere, but i cannot force my way through the nature of what life has become. Now i know why people get serious all the time and they don't play like kids do anymore.

2005-02-07T09:07:00.000-08:00

perhaps he doesn't love me enough?
he is too rational, he told me that if we are not compatible, then break up, what about the love?
people in love are blinded. Feelings are nothing to him? He told me that it's not about loving one alot or not, if im not compatible to him , then break up, its the most important thing, he told me that, that breaks my heart........All the love i had given was pure feelings, nothing else matters to me. But so many things matters to him.......
someone pls tell me.

2005-02-06T07:31:00.000-08:00

Hi! haven't been blogging for a long time again. ahah, think no one visits my blog now. Maybe just writing for myself then, to keep myself updated of how i have been ^_^. Well, everyday is working day, duno is it me being too hard on myself or what, coz im not satisfied with my own performance, or is it that my boss doesn't really appreciate my kind of style of work, or maybe that potential hasn't been fully utilise yet. But overall, work is quite alrite, working life is pretty good. Just that i think that the job isn't good enough. I needed to be someone more "useful". I needed to be in a place that keeps me motivated, but not this place. I don't see a real good bright future over here. Im cracking my brains out to see what else can i better develop at. However, I must say working here has been much more relaxing than those days when im back in school. That was a nightmare. Having some money to spend every now and then is good though. I enjoy doing that....*_~ And still, every morning, i get myself motivated to see what i can give to my job. I believe in giving my best to whatever I'm doing, whether it is a rubbish job or not, at least i won't feel like trash u noe what i mean? ^^

I feel closer to my boy these days, it must have been built over the quality time and trust given after a certain period. I guess I have found my harbour to lean on i hope. What do ya think, boy?
I'm gonna over to Malaysia this coming week for CNY, to have fun. I just hope it's not gonna be too tiring. Gonna have some pictures taken of myself finally. ;) Bought Eason's concert DVD yesterday, haven't watch it yet, I love him. Ray Charles' music CD is disappointing, i was expecting some fast " blue" tracks. -_-
Keep the comments coming in, tag it!

bored??!!

2005-01-30T02:43:00.000-08:00

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Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

Sorry, havent been blogging for about 2 weeks. Really too lazy or tired to do anything after work everyday. Just ain't interested in any " small" matters ,just concentrating on work. Every night when i come home, i just get myself prepared to go to work again the next day. How is work? Everything is fine at the moment, but maybe i might have new things to do soon. Waking up at 630 am everyday from monday to wed or thurs is alrite, by the last day or 2nd last day of my weekdays, i become a little too tired for that and get a little bit less punctual to work. hehe. By 9 working days, I have done 34 t-shirt designs.

Looking at my picture now, it seems abit blur and discoloured as if im on a tv screen. So bored? i just wanted to capture how im feeling now. Today is a Sunday and im all alone.By weekend, im get lethargic, just sleeping and slacking at home watching tv for hours and hours. Waiting for nothing to come. How pitiful will that be, my face says.." adopt me please" again in this picture. It's a silly feeling. Spending 7 hours by now in the house with no one around is an awful feeling, and there will be more hours to come later. Visiting the city isn't my hobby now anymore as things, places and feeling of that becomes similar to me with limited cash on. There aren't much things to do at home as well, so i might as well prepare for work tmr again now? hehe v funny. I'm going to bring Milo for a walk soon. Poor Milo 2. Have done all the housework in the house i have wanted to do. Maybe watch a movie later on my own? See how, till then *_~

!st day at work

2005-01-17T08:22:00.000-08:00

I was really excited about going to work today. I felt as though it's a new lease of life. Finally, im like everyone else around me, working. I'm a "late" queen, however about work, im always quite punctual. When i make that effort to wake up early and rush about just to be punctual, i feel motivated to start work for that day. I know im making that effort to be more efficient and i hope time will make me a better person when i become more experience with what i am doing and being more productive. "Busy means becoming efficient and productive".

I am not intending to stay long in this company, as i feel that i wouldn't learn much over here, i need to move on and change my environment and get other experiences maybe 1 yr later. For this job, it's kind of a fun thing to do, stressless compared to my tedious workload during school days. The stress part will be my shoulders, sitting infront of my comp all day without walking around except for the 45 mins break for lunch. Im expected to turn up and 830 and finish work by 6. I have to wake up at 630 in the morning. I don't really mind, coz im glad im a designer who can go off work on time at 6pm, this is the interesting part. I'm getting quite a reasonable pay for such work scope also, i think anyone would love to stay if the job scope is of their interest. Office environment is quite alright, at least i occupy a decent space with a macintosh. Just get quite bored when my 2 other collegues, they dun talk almost at all, im expecting to lunch alone sometimes i guess. Office environment is alrite, but not that nice of the working environment, few variety of food for lunch, doesn't look too nice either of the place.

Actually, i wanna confess my feelings today here, but its too late now haha, gotta wake up at 630... maybe tmr, if i still feel the same way. :)

2005-01-12T02:19:00.000-08:00

timburton
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

This is one of tim burton's toy kechain from the movie, Nightmare Before Christmas. The rest, im too lazy to fix them up, so didn't take pics of it.

Today, went to meet the boss of the company (*************). They called me up and wanted me to do freelance for them, they talked of a stationary project over the phone. I was expecting to get a job today, so i can start earning. However to my disappointment, she just wanted to meet me today and have a chat to know more about me. Alrite, it's not that bad though, she said she will contact me again when she gets the project, coz she is still pending for it. She wants to know my strength area so she could specify the type of project to me. i forgot to bring my namecard today, how embarrassing, but i noe she already gotten one, that's how she could contact me. Haha, just comforting myself, nvm :p She advised me on my career and stuff. She somehow did motivate me, but she speaks like my mum about career, they are almost of the same age. She kept saying she likes to get to know freshies like me to get fresh and diff ideas, she kept mentioning the word "fresh" on me and the rest of the newly graduates. Fresh makes me feel like a piece of meat. I had to remind myself that im a lean meat when i think of meat. I think she is trying to make me feel and understand that unexperience designers like me should be more experienced first before getting a better pay from her? ;p, maybe she is using this tactic to pay me lesser later or get a "more resonable" price for her projects. Besides getting fresh ideas from freshies u can pay them lesser, maybe that's why she wanna get freshies to work for her.However, i guess she must be quite a friendly n understanding boss by the way she presented herself. ;) Im glad i didn't take too long to get employed, alot depends on luck, and of coz a little or some kind of hard work at least. I might not be v ambitious or getting a great job, but at least i think im interested in the job scope, humble myself and be trying different things for a start to get exposure.

2005-01-10T07:09:00.000-08:00

Im pissed. Like i have mentioned before in my past posts, i have realised the cruelty fact of life that some people just ain't realising what they are doing to others with how much i have given with my sincerity towards them as friends. Maybe i have a simple mind, maybe im a simple girl, believing how certain things should go my way, not realising what lies behind their skull, is just fxxxed up like the rest of the people i have met. I think they just didn't know how to appreciate for who i am, maybe i should be handled differently? When they duno who i am, they want to pretend like im any girl they always know of, and talk to them like that? BTW, IM NOT WITH 77th streets! thank u. Don't put ur nose in the air cocky like u think u noe all of what's in my mind. Fxxxing pissed coz im not good at words! Don't think u have hit the nail even a little??!! I'm gonna have a hubby soon, don't know that? coz ur stupid! gez, i don't even know how can i ever have new friends like that.

I'm starting work next Monday. Don't know if i still got time to blog as often, but i hope so. Got some Tim Burton's pvc toys again, however, haven't fix them up yet, really excited about taking pictures of it. It's only v small tiny ones, those put coins in the machine, and u turn turn turn the knob and pops out a plastic ball with all the toy parts inside. hehe ;X

NOODLES are NOODLES, U Can't Expect Much.

2005-01-06T09:44:00.000-08:00

expecting something virtual / depending on others = torture myself

2005-01-05T22:44:00.000-08:00

thisisamagazine
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

Woke up early this afternoon feeling as crappy as ever. Did i wake up from the wrong side of the bed?
No decent pictures for today??!! No pictures for these few days!!?? boring? yea i guess. What happened? I am stuck i think.
Stuck for new ideas about life. So, what's the remedy?*play* o_O I know im talking to myself, but whoever talks to me??!!(About that picture there for no reason, im just like the red piece of object lying stiff and still there for no good reason, untouched. Btw, that is my fav. graphic magazine.)

okok, getting irritable.
What's my resolution for the new year 2005?
Btw, Hey! Jeslyn, sorry that i havent get u a present yet. -_- i feel bad, what a lousy friend i am. But i will try to get it somehow, still.

My new resolution for the new year, meaning by the end of 2005, i must accomplish these:

1) Take music theory exam(one of the grade).
2) Get some paintings done, cum a web art gallery(+try selling it).
3) Save $400/mth when i start working.

So this is it, not too many points to make, if not, how to accomplish all the big missions? These are just my plans i wanna carry out, HOPEFULLY i do. Thank you for supporting my blog. Anything u wanna comment on, tag me!

Life was once happy and innocent.

2005-01-05T07:34:00.000-08:00

http://cookie.shueisha.co.jp/kabegami/1024.html

My friend showed me this link to this image that stirs some feelings in me.

LIFE FEEDS ART

2005-01-04T07:42:00.000-08:00

http://illustrationfriday.com/

For those who likes illustrations, u can participate and show your talent off.

2005-01-02T21:43:00.000-08:00

retro1
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

Here are some pictures I have taken from my tv screen. As u all know, i like taking photographs. Seldom will i get to see these retro movies appearing on tv , it's pretty rare. I watched parts of the movie, it's v funny, they like to exaggerate emotions and movements alot, also on their facial expression. Everything about the movie towards the audience is very direct, very different from movies these days. The colours are also set to very high contrast, like a picture.

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retro2
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

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retro4
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

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retro5
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

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retro6
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

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retro7
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

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retro3
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

Year2005

2005-01-02T21:18:00.000-08:00

presentfrmaunt
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

It's a New Year. This is a present given to me by my aunt for Xmas, just recieved it today, it's a beautiful crystal beaded ring of a butterfly, brightly coloured in pink INSIDE. Being mysterious again. o_o

2004-12-29T07:20:00.000-08:00

Originally uploaded by whatefuck.

This evening, i went Parsa Malang with my sister, went there with her, but she decided to join her friend instead and for half of the time i was walking alone to and fro, because she DIDNT WANT me to be around her, i felt like a housefly tagging along behind. Perhaps i went out of my mind at that time and bought a HELLO KITTY shower cap??!!!?? I can't stand myself, but i thought i needed some "contrast" in my life. Ha, i also thought i could use it on Yen's head , and i can take a picture of him wearing this Hello Kitty shower cap, since he can't get the Hello Kitty gas mask he wanted all along. Anyway, it only cost me $1.

2004-12-29T03:07:00.000-08:00

necklace
Originally uploaded by whatefuck.

Hi Jerlyn. Dun worry, ur Xmas present, the necklace is not at all ugly :). It's nice. I just wanted it looking mysterious in the pic, coz i dun like taking direct shots. So here it is everyone, the shot I have missed in my picture collection for Xmas.

About the tsunami news that killed so many, i am very bothered about it. It's nature force that we cannot avoid. I feel really upset whenever i hear news about it many times a day. Whenever i am reminded of the news, I really miss my love ones alot, especially those close to me, how i hope we can spend more quality time together. Friends, u may tag me to show u care. Have a nice day!

Merry Xmas!

2004-12-27T20:51:00.000-08:00

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Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

Hi! would like to wish everyone a Merry Xmas, specially to Jerlyn, Jeslyn, Desiree, Eve, Prince, Peter, Yuling, Yen, and to those who reads my blog.
Thank you!

Our presents lay out like this. What?! why all the repeated patterns, retro style?

2004-12-27T20:44:00.000-08:00

standing
Originally uploaded by whatefuck.

This is my present from Yen. He stacked them up like this and wrapped it, with a USED wrapper. He told me so, haha, i need to mention that. But i still love the thought of the present he gave me. I thought that was a box of chocolate when it was still in its wrapper.

2004-12-27T20:41:00.000-08:00

tinbox2
Originally uploaded by whatefuck.

These are toys from the show, " Nightmare Before Christmas" by Tim Burton. I like toys by Tim Burton. Weird, funny looking, eerie toys. Inside, are keychain of the characters.

2004-12-27T20:39:00.000-08:00

tinbox
Originally uploaded by whatefuck.

2004-12-27T20:30:00.000-08:00

hisbag
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

This is what i gave to Yen for Xmas.

2004-12-27T20:02:00.000-08:00

fromjerlyn
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

Small, and cutely wrapped. Reminds me of those days when i was young, we wrapped things up like that small, it's the thought that counts.

2004-12-27T20:00:00.000-08:00

open
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

Ripping it open, revealed a nice, blue necklace given by Jerlyn. Thanks! Why didn't i take a proper picture of how it looks ? Because i wanna keep it mysterious?

2004-12-27T19:57:00.000-08:00

snow2
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

On Xmas day itself, i dropped by orchard road. Large pieces of "snowflakes" created by a bubble making machine. The scene was beautiful, however this is not my type of shampoo :p

2004-12-27T19:55:00.000-08:00

snow4
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

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snow3
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

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snow1
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

2004-12-27T19:52:00.000-08:00

skates
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

Learnt roller blading for my 1st or 2nd time. The other time, years ago, i kept falling on my bum, and nearly twisted my friend's arm. haahah.. so afraid of falling on my bum again this time, but i did not fall at all this time round, i was lucky. But they said, u learn from falling. I learnt walking on the wheels last weekend, for about half an hour, just downstairs, nearly all on my own.

Life is a show.

2004-12-26T09:47:00.000-08:00

Some people are really just so insincere, they showed me what the world is like. People get pretentious, they pretended they care, they pretended they are nice and sincere, they pretended u matter to them. What's the truth behind all these, action tells. I wished that life wasn't a show, but it is. Life is a show about love and fictitious relationships. Sometimes i just want to watch tv all day, and let tv be my companient for life.

I cared too much about others. I cared about how they think about me, i cared about if i did make anyone angry, or upset, i cared if they are happy. I tried to be as sincere as possible about anything i say or do to others, but i noe that still 10% of some circumstances i'm not as sincere to others as i want to be. I wished 10% is enough. I wished someone cared about me, as much as i do. Was my expectation too high, or was i really right about them. Every smile might be fake, every word might be a lie, every movement might be to cover up what's on their mind. I don't want to love anyone in vain. Tears can't be fake? They can be. I am really disappointed with some of those kind of people who are around me. Blackmiser will be upset these few days, unable to break from the cycle of figuring out who really cares and what are not lies. I will be mourning. No more lies, will be a paradise. Will someone just give me a taste of paradise?

2004-12-22T18:38:00.000-08:00

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Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

Yesterday, i happened to be at cityhall waiting for Yen in the evening, i remembered that i wanted to take pictures of the art exhibits the other time but i didnt have a camera, i only bought a qoo drink in the end, remember? So this time round i went there alone, however some of the exhibits were already taken away, so here are the few leftovers.

2004-12-22T18:34:00.001-08:00

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Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

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Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

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Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

Like a scare crow.

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Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

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Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

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Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

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Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

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Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

2004-12-21T20:32:00.000-08:00

" life is like being raped , you have to learn to enjoy it when you can't refuse..." ^^

When Trust Plays No Part

2004-12-21T19:28:00.000-08:00

Tears trickle down from my tear stained cheeks,
imploring my sorrow, sweet solace it seeks.
Oh why, tell me why does it hurt so much,
my heart's in a death grip by the hands of love's clutch.

Love's not supposed to demand so much pain,
with nothing but heartache and sadness to gain.
Regret and unhappiness should seldom be felt,
if trust takes the hand of the love we've been dealt.

Weeds of mistrust, like wildfire they spread,
when one's love is weak, they're easily mislead.
Seeds of uncertainty are sown all around,
suspicion and doubt spring forth from its ground.

Questions chase questions, every move to explain,
with innocence confirmed, love struggles in vain.
Where is proof's need, if trusting was strong?
Just a word with no meaning while love's being wronged.

Look to your own heart when your accusations fly.
Could it be insecurities are your reasons of why?
Your own scars and burns may be your driving force,
or maybe self guilt is your primary source.

Alone in the darkness my tears over flow,
wrapped in my silence with sadness and woe.
'Tho I've proven my innocence, do you realize the gain?
Your doubt is diminished while my heart's filled with pain.

Written by: Dee(Diana)
Copyright: April 14, 2004
Dedicated to my love.

37*

2004-12-20T20:03:00.000-08:00

tshirt1
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

These are the 3 t-shirt designs i proposed for 37*. 1st, "Surf", 2nd, " Sports(Skatboarding)", 3rd, " Freestyle, Arty Farty". Please feel free to give any comments about it, what you like and don't like about it, and if designs are for appropriate use on the t-shirts. Thank you for viewing. :)

2004-12-20T19:59:00.000-08:00

tshirt2
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

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tshirt3
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

Loving Prince

2004-12-19T19:21:00.000-08:00

Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

I had Prince for a year plus. He should be about this age at this time. Isn't he cute in this picture? I named him Prince as i thought this name sounds royal plus a touch of elegence to it. I think it's the best name to give him at that point of time when he needed attention and tender care when he was a kid. 3 months later after i owned him, he developed "cherry eye", the pinkish "vein-like" skin under one of his eye popped up, i felt sad for him, but still love him the same as ever. Others may think he is irritating, but i never felt like that about him. I felt really sad today that my parents have decided to keep him in the small cage forever, except for 2 walks a day. I know there is no way i can make them change their mind, or disobey them, as ever. That is not how anyone should treat a dog, or a living thing, i felt like him now when i remembered my parents locked me up in the house when i was at the age of 20 with an extra big pad lock, reason being, afraid the thief might come in.??And what did i do to deserve that? Going out in the night at 9 pm, and returning before dawn. It's right, that i should appreciate what my parents have given me, a good life, but i would rather exchange it for my own will and freedom. I don't mind living a simple life, in a small house just being happy, and being able to make my kind of decision everyday. I don't mind waking up early going for simple coffee n bread breakfast, tending to all the house work in my little house by myself like a servant. That's part of a " real" life, and i will accept it for exchange of happiness or freedom or for anything else that i want to have. I strictly want my control over things i get to handle. I'm not going to spend any effort on people or things that made me upset, there is nothing else to think of except utter disappointments. i will love what i have to the outmost, and to what i cannot have, i will remember them as the saddest part of my life, they are at the most bottom level where they are just nothing in my eyes. Things or people i cannot be bothered with at all, i wont even lift my last finger for, I can love something easily to the extreme, i can also give up something easily sometimes. I am a person with extreme personality.

2004-12-17T01:05:00.000-08:00

Director of 37 degrees retail shop went to our graduation show on Tuesday, picked up my namecard and asked for an interview today. Did my interview today at Outram Road, an old factory building, 37 degrees garment factory. Waited for 25 mins for my interview and get interviewed for nearly an hour. They are hiring a new graphic designer to do their t-shirt designs. I am asked to propose 3 designs to her via email later on. I hope i get the job. It is what i wanted, being an in-house designer for a clothing retail shop, plus i can do what i always wanted-illustrate. I dun wanna be some designer for just any "lub sub"(dirty/ rubbish) retail shop.

2004-12-15T07:53:00.000-08:00

exhibit3
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

Yesterday night was my graduation for my ba(hons) VC course in Raffles Lasalle Institute. It was a grand thing held at Raffles The Plaza, Raffles Ballroom. I had a small booth for my exhibits, and it was an exciting night for all the designers who were invited. This was my second time having an exhibition show, but the first one wasn't anything like that, this was strictly on invites and everyone had to look like "SGD16000", because it's held in the ballroom??. I went on stage to be congratulated together with the rest of the 5 members of my class. This is a picture of us on stage taken by my mum.

2004-12-15T07:42:00.000-08:00

exhibit1
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

This was my booth. I had two posters on. The first one was a compilation of my illustration book. In the background i had all the 60 pages of illustrations put together and then repeated over and over again to form a repeated pattern. The theme of the illustrations are about the journey of my childhood. For the second poster, it's about the mirror images of life. The whole image is made up of bits of different sizes of photographs that i get to see or interact with everyday. The whole point is to feel the squarish angles of the photo making it up to be like refraction or reflections from a mirror.
What is left there in my portfolio are works i have did previously.

2004-12-15T07:35:00.000-08:00

exhibit2
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

This is a picture eve took for me. I definitely have to take a picture of myself on this day wearing a dress when i seldom get to look like that, coz im always on casual wear. I didn't waste any money going to the salon to get my make up done neither did i buy this dress specially for this occassion. I actually spent like $80 printing my work, except for the $500 which i had to pay for this graduation show, which is god damn not worth for. I didnt even consume enough of the buffet to be considered having my dinner.

2004-12-12T04:32:00.000-08:00

bear
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

When i returned home, i saw this bear on my bed. My dad bought it for me, maybe it's for xmas? i duno, hehe, thanks dad, i can have it and later on remember how dad used to give me a soft toy like that.

2004-12-12T03:49:00.000-08:00

gumballs
Originally uploaded by Miss Miser.

These are gum balls. It's my first time seeing the real thing, but i have seen them in illustration pictures before when i was young, those gum balls winding machine with the precious moments characters, remember? The real ones are huge, having a diameter of about 3 cm at least .Here are a few left, not many enough to make it colourful like i like it.